You can hear it from many places: this is the year of great changes. For me, what matters is not who says it or what exactly is said, but what I am able to recognize from the reality I perceive. This is how what I take in becomes true within me. And yes, life is unfolding very differently now. I like how the sense is deepening that the consequences of my intentions and actions appear in reality with almost immediate feedback. There is no more dithering.
The shared focus of the next ceremony has been given this name: “It is not the body that heals itself, but through consciousness it offers itself to transformation.” I wrote about my experience related to this, and I also said that, honestly, I didn’t know whether this could be useful in the case of great pain. Last night, the answer arrived. Yes, it can.
I woke up to a pain that allowed nothing else but the perception of it. This has appeared a few times before, and it took hours to fade away—back when this body was younger. I am grateful, because almost immediately it arrived into this space filled with pain that the time for the test had come. Relatively quickly, though with some difficulty, I found my attention directed to my breathing and my heartbeat. At first, this attention was allowed through the pain, then it took a complete turn, so that the heavy sensation was only perceptible through the focus on the breath and the heartbeat. In less than five minutes, the tormenting symptom ceased, and gratitude took its place for the fact that all this could happen.
Thus, a previous experience unfolded itself in a memorable way. Since all of this made me alert, and I otherwise love the nighttime communion with cacao, I prepared the drink of the gods and let this event run its course. About this special experience I will write later, if the moment supports it.
With love, Zoltan
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